🌷 Let's Enjoy D Life's Rhythm...
Poetess : Tilottama Vijay Lele

Anything in excess can be a headache
Der's a paradox of Self-Awareness

Self-Awareness is a double-edged sword 
Trap of overthinking, we can't afford 

If we chanel this skill, it acts like a boon 
But excessive criticism can be a baboon

Overthinking can be a curse
“Self-aware” person mostly suffers

Problem is unique n healing is hard
But we're not ready even to start

We're reflective n understanding.
Truly conscious of each action n wording

Each n every move we make/take
Not getting on nerves, we stay quiet

Sometimes we become empathetic. 
We accept d actions though problematic

Even a minor Lil inconvenience 
Never goes unnoticed by us…

Der's a strong ache in noticing things 
We're aware of shift in someone’s voice

A change in behaviour we easily notice
We overthink our intentions n prioritize

D decisions over our emotional reactions
We wonder n criticise d decisions

What'd it be if we never made d mistake
Initially it's like our maturity isn't fake 

We're emotionally intelligent
N Der’s no room for everyone in our life.

But slowly, it turns to poison our blood
Becuz our self-awareness turns into flood 

We become aware of everything we do. 
Every thought, every feeling, every flaw

There is room for improvements…
We full-time observe our own sentiments

Then we start punishing ourselves…
Often for things, not even done by us

People do things n forget in seconds
Still we cringe over trivial incidents 

We over analyse our tone, our words
Our reactions n with it comes self-blames

We fear being accountable for our actions
We wear them like invisible necklaces…

We adjust. We cut, we edit ourselves 
To fit into d perfect expected frames

Which we've constructed strictly for us
Otherwise we won’t forgive ourselves

In doing all of this, we lose something. 
Deep inside d essence n charm of being

Who we're beyond empathy.
When we work on our self-esteem

We don’t realise it can be toxic
Unknowingly we become self-critic

We do our best not to hurt anyone,
Even if we get hurt many times, alone

We measure mistakes as catastrophic, 
As if World'll reject us unless we self-edit

We become like a bridge 
One's a prisoner n other’s a guard to seize

All d time we doubt our intentions. 
We question our worth n intelligence

We become more n more self-aware 
Of how we come across if we spare

N gradually, it ruins our confidence.
Pretending it as emotional intelligence

We think through every possibility 
From other person’s perspective only

Emotionally-intelligent people do that
Sensitive people often fall into this trap.

Not bcuz they're powerless to do anything
Bcuz they feel a lot about everything…

We too deserve days, noons, nights... 
When we realise not to overthink

No one has right to swing us back n forth 
Just like a pendulum on a clock.

Being self-aware is to see beauty in us
N enjoy beautiful things around us

It always helps us to reflect
Der is pride in being open-minded

Avoiding response to religions n races
An ache to notice things in details

We don’t miss d shift in someone’s voice
A change in behaviour, we won’t miss

Let's control our urges of self-criticism
N choose to enjoy d Life's rhythm

🌷@Tilottama Vijay Lele
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