🌷 Meaningful Bonding…
Poetess: Tilottama Vijay Lele

Perhaps d deepest loneliness...
Isn’t being without friends n happiness 

It's being surrounded by them for years
N yet Der's a feel of isolation n tears

Often Der's lack of communication
N overall confusion due to isolation

As if we're stranger to ourselves...
N Der's nowhere to find silence.

Der comes a time in life...
When we find ourselves sitting alone

N strangely, in that silence we feel
D truth about our own Life's deal...

Not d life we describe to others,
Not d version we carry through crowds

With a practiced 'fake' smile,
All-d-time saying "I'm fine"...

Becuz Der is never enough time,
To explain d true meaning of "fine".

D actual life beneath all of that...
D tiredness n D old aches n crap 

D disappointments folded neatly
N placed somewhere inside wisely

All d times whenever we smile,
Past continues to breathe well inside

As our sadness is beyond explaining
It's more exhausting than holding...

Afterwards without any permission,
Memory begins to rewind on it's own 

We can spend an entire Lifetime...
Being present for everyone else

N still at some quiet evening wondering
When we disappeared from our own life.

Sometimes major role exhaustion plays
Which isn't caused by one difficult day...

It is d weight of years spent surviving
Not stopping to check what's true feeling

Loneliness isn't absence of crowds
It’s some place without an audience

Perhaps we spend so many years...
Trying to be understood by others...

We forget to sit beside our own tiredness
N acknowledge it without arguments…

One day we're alone in that quiet corner,
With memories but our heart is too tired

To pretend to escape d silence…
Instead of staying as an escape

Let's remember n grieve for past years
Accept d loneliness, a sign, not a failure

Then with awareness let’s say d prayers
Being aware of Subtle Divine Powers

Mind is craving for a meaningful bonding
N real relationships with understanding.

🌷@Tilottama Vijay Lele
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